Live to Work ? Work to Live ?

work-life balance is a tricky thing ... In my paid  jobs  I've always been a  work to live kind of girl ,yes i'll stay over to  pull the team out the mire, yes i'll take overtime when it's offered ... but a lot of the time , even when i working in healthcare, my job  stayed in my locker  and I tried not to take it home...

However  that  wasn't always possible  and  there are still moments I relive in glorious technicolour and smellovision  and I doubt they will ever leave me , they are moments  in extremis...  I used to be a Registered Nurse  who worked in the Emergency Department so these moments will be pretty extreme.

A missed clue  over my identity  surfaced  when i became an Emergency  Department  Nurse ,  " You're  different person in the resus room "  said colleagues  " and  that is meant as a compliment , it's like you shift gear  and 'bam' ,  cool as a cucumber  taking care of business... " 

After i'd left Nursing I realised something -   that change was the mask dropping  that was Nicola taking charge, 'shedding load' as such ...

Those who know me pre-transition will also know I used to do a lot of volunteer work  related to healthcare both practically  delivering  emergency care at  events and supporting the Ambulance service and a lot of policy, governance and training work... i threw myself into that  to  stop thinking aobut certain things...  much as i had thrown my  self in my involvement with the Reserve  Forces for  3 or 4 years as a Student and NQN  ...  (sorry voyeurs no stories about spending several hours getting ready  as Nicola  and then having to  scrub it all off to throw mess dress or a Dinner jacket on  - although one of my  capbadges  one in particular had a very nice female mess  dress due to a redesign when the capbadge went mixed)...

Now - I do work to live, my job is a job  i take pride in what i do  ( as the  reward scheme  letters and  the occasional set of 'points mean prizes'  show ) and  i'll done some service improvement stuff of my own back  and  as i said in Hello World i'm now also a trade union rep for my  department.  

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