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What have I become ?

 What have I become?  I'm me, same as I always have been, yeah the outside has seen some changes to match the inside.  I've learnt that hinging your identity around a job is fraught and also it's a way to hide from addressing the real issues.  But i've also learnt that  many organisations will not learn from this on both an individual and a general level  I've learnt that  you do not owe people who set out to harm you any kind of time, space of energy    I've learnt that Dancers are some of the warmest  people  out there, just a shame there's handful who would rather align with fascists and extremists  than with  their own community  I've also beomce that dancer who takes class en pointe because she wants to  

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Annual Leave and the Recreational Dancer

dignity and frustration

Called to the Bar(re)

this blog

A Return to the Studio

Nice Name, did your mum pick it for you?

Anniversaries Part 2 - the impact of S28

Anniversaries part 1

Elective Surgery

More Radio Fun


Telling a Story

Mourning someone who never existed

What does a 'successful' Dance School look like ?


Some Anniversaries

The (disappointing) scores on the doors , Nicola's 2020 in dance

What do I call you ?

want a ballet body ?


Trans women and chest dysphoria

Mandatory Progression - A tale of two hobbies

Line up !

Playing Radio

Names as Insults.

A Safe Space

Private Classes - why as an adult recreational dancer might you go down this route ?

A story about a girl , Rethink, Reskill, Reboot

Comments on the Blog

If i had known then ...

What have I become ?

Lightbulb jokes

that poem

a Poem

Further down The Rabbit Hole : The private dance class.

Return to the Studio

What have I learnt in Lockdown ? (mental health edition )

What Have I learnt in Lockdown (Tech Edition #1)

What have I learnt in Lockdown? (ballet edition)

Ballet In Lockdown

Poster Girl

The privilege of apparently giving up privilege…

In the alternative timeline ...

Hugh go there and Hugh go there ...

The new (ab)normal


The Ballerina and the Mirror

When the rabbit hole's wall come inwards ...