Regret ?

I've been asked  do i have any  regrets  about my  journey , well  in  some very very minor ways yes I do

1.  Deluding myself that a double life was possible or desirable - a refusal to let go of 'that boy'

2. I can no longer use a favoured polite expression of exasperation commonly used by the male presenting members of  my  paternal  family... because a woman  saying ' You're like a man i'm Aunt to ' isn't nonsensical...