'You're just trying to appropriate having been a trans kid '
I did not come out as trans until I was in my thirties, so I've been accused of appropriating when I say; yes I was a trans kid ...
My Dysphoria isn't the classical primary narrative, my body dysphoria was subtle and my psychological and psycho-social dysphoria overrode it for a long long time.. .there there is the self gas-lighting - the living up to the role everyone else places on you.
In wonderful retrospectrovision the clues as to my trans identity scream out across my childhood and teens... It seems the only things missing were the adamant insistence 'I'm a girl' but i was never sure I was a boy... and the self harm type stuff, but how do you self harm the psychological dysphoria which overrides the physical dysphoria...
I was accused of being gay at school on a regular basis, but then again a none macho persona, having female actual friends ( even though i did fancy them - or did I want to be just like them ? ) somewhat effeminate mannerism and the like ...
So when people say "I was a gender none conforming child and I grew up to be a cisgender straight adult "... They are usually speaking from a sample where N=1, well my N=1 sample says the complete other thing i'm trans and I'm a lesbian.
My Dysphoria isn't the classical primary narrative, my body dysphoria was subtle and my psychological and psycho-social dysphoria overrode it for a long long time.. .there there is the self gas-lighting - the living up to the role everyone else places on you.
In wonderful retrospectrovision the clues as to my trans identity scream out across my childhood and teens... It seems the only things missing were the adamant insistence 'I'm a girl' but i was never sure I was a boy... and the self harm type stuff, but how do you self harm the psychological dysphoria which overrides the physical dysphoria...
I was accused of being gay at school on a regular basis, but then again a none macho persona, having female actual friends ( even though i did fancy them - or did I want to be just like them ? ) somewhat effeminate mannerism and the like ...
So when people say "I was a gender none conforming child and I grew up to be a cisgender straight adult "... They are usually speaking from a sample where N=1, well my N=1 sample says the complete other thing i'm trans and I'm a lesbian.
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