'You're just trying to appropriate having been a trans kid '

I did not  come out as trans until I was in my thirties, so I've been accused of appropriating when I say; yes I was a trans kid ...

My Dysphoria isn't the classical primary narrative, my body dysphoria  was subtle and my psychological and psycho-social dysphoria overrode  it for a long long time.. .there there is the self gas-lighting - the living up to the role  everyone else places on you.

In wonderful retrospectrovision the clues as to my trans identity scream out across my childhood and teens...  It seems the only things missing were the adamant insistence 'I'm a girl' but i was never sure I was a boy... and the self harm type stuff, but how do you self harm the psychological dysphoria which overrides the physical dysphoria...

I was accused of being gay at school on a regular basis,  but then again a none macho persona,  having  female actual friends  ( even though i did  fancy  them  - or did I want to be just like them ? )  somewhat  effeminate mannerism  and the like ... 

So when people say "I was a gender none conforming child and I grew up to  be a cisgender straight adult "... They are usually speaking from a sample where N=1, well my N=1 sample says the complete other thing i'm trans and I'm a lesbian.   

 

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